Don't get me wrong, I am really good friends with my roommate Bulldog. Now that that's out of the way sometimes he really gets on my nerves. He's in the marine reserves and just found out that his unit is scheduled to be deployed to Iraq next July.

If you were to have a conversation only about politics you'd think that Bulldog and I could slice eachother's throats. Yours truly leans left on everything while he's a righty, though more moderately so than most I think. Despite our differences he's a good guy and a great friend. That's why this is so frustrating for me. He actually doesn't really like the idiot monkey that we have for a president, though he won't go as far as I will to say "worst president ever!" I really think that because Bulldog voted for the idiot he's not willing to say "ya know, I was wrong in 2004, I should have voted for the other guy." Even now, with the news that he'll be spending at least a year in a FUCKING WARZONE, he can't bring himself to admit that even though he's been disappointed he'd like to see someone else in office.

We had this discussion last night. I let it be known that I hope that by July he won't have to go overseas. His reply was a "well I hope I do." He totally misunderstood what I was saying. He was thinking that I don't want him to go because I oppose the war and have from the beginning. That's not the reason this time. The reason is because he's my friend and I don't want him to get hurt. Sometimes people can be frustrating.

breathe out.

Happier news. Looks like at the end of this month I'll be playing an acoustic set for the second annual K.A.T Breast Cancer fundraiser. Beauty's friend, and coincidently my ex-girlfriend now simply good friend, Mallory (she of the sexy southern accent) organized this same sort of thing for the soroiety her and Beauty belong too. Details are sketchy at the moment, I just got off the phone with Mallory who's helping to organize it again this semester and was asked if I'd like to perform again. HELL YES. Hey, if 20 minutes of my awful music can raise a few bucks for an important cause then I'm all for it. I'll give ya'll more details as I get them but right now it's looking to be scheduled for the early evening of May 3rd. I'm assuming it's at the memorial union at the university of north dakota just like last time but like I said, I'll keep ya posted.

Love and respeck
Gavin

It's April but outside my window is a blizzard. It's not hard to hate the midwest.

I need to share this. This is definitly the funnist thing I've seen today. Peace.

Before I show you these pictures I should explain something first so that you don't think that my roommate Bulldog (remember the fan of the drink Colorado Bulldogs), his girlfriend who will forever be known to me as the Milk Theif, Beauty and I are alcoholics. We're not. However we have over the past year been buying more booze then we've been drinking and it's been piling up. To make matters worse a local liquor store, Happy Harry's, is having there annual penny wine sale. That means that if you buy one bottle of wine you can get the other for a penny. This deal is not only awesome, it is crazy.

Here's our collection before the penny wine sale...



Like I said we've been sort of buying it faster than we've been drinking. Basically Beauty might say one weekend "I'm in the mood for a rum and coke" to which I'll reply "well we don't have any rum, we have vodka." She'll then say "Well, I'll go get some rum then." And over the course of time that has built up.

Now add to this the general craziness that is a penny wine sale...



I suppose now is a good time to tell you that starting on Sunday I'm going to try straight edge again. This means no more meat which is fine since I've pretty much been a vegatarian for over 2 weeks now, Beauty also actually is into this part of it as well. It also means no more caffine and alcohol. I tried this a few months ago but failed when I went to a coffee house with JW. This time I think I'm going to actually succeed.

Why start on Sunday? Because Beauty's friend from home is visitig this weekend. A few of her sororiety friends are going to come over on Saturday night also and from the looks of things it's going to be St Patricks day part 2 at my place this Saturday. *Sigh* At least I'll actually get to see what sororiety girls do when they party at a place other then a fraternity house.

Why do this? Because I want to treat my body right. I quit smoking just before I turned 20 and took up running. Except for the past 2 months due to two broken toes and back in 2005 when I broke my knee I haven't stopped running. Pretty soon my toes will be totally fine and I'll be running again. Despite the pictures I actually rarely drink and though in the past I might have commented when I got drunk that was far from the norm. I have relied too much on caffine to get through days though. No more of that. For the past week I've been into de-caf coffee and really the taste is the same. Some people who who straight edge abstain from regular sex. That's not me. I'm not going to go that far since 1) I think sex is the highest form of showing one's love to another, 2) I love Beauty, 3) We both enjoy sex, a lot! The whole point of this is that I want to live a lifestyle that adheres to the way I see myself. I want my body to be a suitable vessal for my mind. Am I going to keep this up forever? Probably not but at this moment in my life it's something I want to do. When I don't want to anymore then I'll stop but until then wish me luck.

I'm still angry that the republican convention in 2008 is going to be held in my home. The state hasn't even been a red state since Nixon was president. The city of summits is way too good a place for them to hold, as some of my friends say, hatefest 2008.

Anybody care to join me in a year and half with a few thousand others. Despite some concerns...

http://www.startribune.com/587/story/1081419.html

...you'd better believe there will be a few protests over this. Peace out.

I meant to make up this entry yesterday but more friends showed up to JT Cigaros for our show then I expected. Needless to say JW, JS, Beauty and I spent most of yesterday recovering.

Not going to say too much because sometimes I worry that I might be coming across as bragging and since I might be the only one who ever sees this then that makes bragging even more sad.

A few highlights from the first ever Scar Tissue show in Fargo. Ms Kim (JW's fiance) stepped out for our last song and was introduced as our "sometimes bassist." She is now offically our unoffical fourth member, filling in for JS on bass so that he can summon dark magic from his keyboard. Kim's voice can be heard backing me up on the track "Lie Detector" from our demo. You'd know who she is because when you listen to it you'll think "so she's the one who can actually sing." My original idea was actually to have her not just play her bass so that JS could move over to keyboard for that song but also to have her take the lead vocals with me backing her up. Seriously, her voice is stellar. She wasn't going to have any of that though, I don't think she liked the idea of being in the spotlight like that though truth be told in that musty bar there were no spotlights. In the end JS backed me up. The song went ok, though I think it would have beem much more of a treat for her to sing. Ce la vie. Maybe in the future, maybe not.

I'm pumped though, in the future she may accompany us on her bass for other songs which could add a whole new dimension to our live shows. I may be the only one but I'm a sucker for keyboard special effects.

My personal highlight was when we played my song "Katie." Beauty has told me from her first listen that that song is her absolute favorite. She's sweet to lie like that. It makes me feel good.

The real Katie, whom I sometimes refer to as K is an exgirlfriend who I was deeply in love with. I originally wrote the song for her and after our relationship ended I hated this song. It really wasn't until beauty listened to it and told me that she loved it that I started to get over the fact that the title maybe "Katie" but the song is a simple love song for no single person save the one I love. During this song Beauty jumped up on her table and mouthed the chorus back at me. It was the best moment of my night, of my year. Everyone else just melted away into darkness and her and I just connected singing to eachother. I love her. I love you all too, but her just a little more. I hope you don't hold that against me. Take care all. Until we meet again.

Gavin